It has officially been six months since I've come to Mississippi and to Chamberlain-Hunt. And to be honest, there have been so many nights where I just wish that I was back home. Just to be around people who can make sound decisions and know how to have a conversation with you. Where I don't have to deal with adolescent teens who refuse to see that the decisions will not only effect them but others as well. Teens who say that they are ready to go out and live in the real world, when in reality, they are going to set themselves up a life of trouble and hardship. Teens who do not put their girlfriends purity at the foremost of their relationships. These are just some of the things that I deal with on a daily basis. It can be mentally taxing to continually have to deal with these things, as well as deal with all the impromptu situations when cadets don't want to listen and do what they're told to do. This job is significantly harder that what I thought it was going to be and a lot more involved.
But the crazy thing is, is that I am enjoying every minute of being here. Yes there are days where I wish I could its escape from reality and not deal with people, but every job is like that. What I strive to focus on is how I can impact these kids for Christ and to help change their lives. Everyday these kids see me and how I react, they're are looking at my witness. Everyday someone is looking at you and your witness. Everyday I'm learning that these kids need consistency from me to help them change, even if the hate me for it. If I want them to change becuase I want them too, thats me being selfish. We all have had a moment in our lives where someone we loved has helped us change. whats the use of helping someone and you dont love them??
